Smile and world will smile with you.
“Aa chal ke tujhe, main le ke chaluun,ik aise gagan ke tale
jahan gam bhii na ho, aansoo bhi na ho,bas pyaar hii pyaar pale”
Can we find such a world, such a place where we can have all the happiness, all the joy, where pain wouldn’t touch us, where tears would be only of happiness, can I find it anytime…?? Yes we can because that world is within us.
Someone said,” don’t wait for happiness, let life take its twists and turns before it gives you what u want…yes, very true, the longer I wait for anything to happen, more tiring the wait gets, the moment I ignore the excitement and go on with life in general everything falls into place.
“Kabhi Sukh Kabhi Dukh Yehi Zindagi Hai,
Yeh Patjhad Ka Mausam Ghadi Do Ghadi Hai
,Yeh Patjhad Ka Mausam Ghadi Do Ghadi Hai”
Past one week I have seen so many changes in myself, I was into any self-analysis, and then I realised that I can be more calm and composed especially when things go wrong.
I handled my work with lots of patience but I used to feel lost when something goes wrong. I used to let others failure affect my day, my smile and patience. Now I am not reacting, people used to find out easily what I feel at a certain moment looking at my facial expressions, but not anymore. Neither with expressions nor in words they are unable to understand what I am thinking.
I don’t know why I want to be like this, but I feel good doing so, let the mystery unfold at its pace, I am not in a hurry with my work or my life. I want to take anything and everything at my own pace, my own way. And I am feeling good that I am able to handle it all.
One more issue where I find myself very rigid is planning. I plan and decide everything in advance, every morning when I wake up my schedule goes in my head, and I hate it when it gets interrupted, but then lets see, maybe I will handle that all also someday, no hurry, let people accept me the way I am, I wont change until I find the need to change 
“ruke ruke se kadam, ruk ke baar baar chale,
karaar leke tere, dar se bekaraar chale
subah naa aayee, kaee baar neend se jaage,
thee yek raat kee ye jindagee, gujaar chale”
After the hectic work past so many week I got to see my work in one shop at Connaught Place ..(Window show-case of book store) now I am free, free?? My friend saw it somewhere and called me … ” Amit its really good work, you should fell proud. You proved your self…” did I??
I promised to myself, I have nothing to prove to the world that I am capable; I am or not is decided by me.I am at peace with myself now, much ,much better than before. Pain of loosing someone is still there, but then I am slowly pushing it down, I cannot be wrong in my choice. Everyone has a reason for what they did. I am not searching for them though, what is not with me was never mine, and what I have can never leave me. Last year someone was with me, and this year … I’m with myself.
“Zindagi mein koyi kabhi aaye na rabba ,
Aaye jo koyi toh phir jaaye na rabba
Dene ho gar mujhe baad mein aansoo…,
Toh pehele koyi hasaaye na rabba “
Me thinking: Why can’t I think of you, without breaking into a smile, followed by the pain of knowing just how long it’s been a while?
Me feeling: ” Do, pal ruka, khwaabon ka kaarvaan Aur phir, chal diye, tum kahaan, ham kahaan Do pal ki thi, ye dilon ki daastaan Aur phir, chal diye, tum kahaan, ham kahaan Aur phir chal diye”
Me listening to: “Jab Maein Raaton Ko Taare Ginta Hoon,Aur Tere Kadmon Ki Aahat Sunta Hoon,Lage Mujhe Har Tara, Tera Darpan,Aaye Tum Yaad Mujhe..”
