If you get a second chance ??
Temperature rising to maximum, it seems all the records broken. Not much work to do now days, its hard to spend the day in bed, or watching TV, I don’t know why I am not listening to music now days or reading something new, don’t feel like writing too.
In evening I was watching the sunset from the terrace and reminded of the song “jeevan ke din chote sahi hum bhi bade dilwale…” I felt like walking after ages, so I started walking without any work or any destination to hit. I walked and halted as I reached temple but didn’t go into the temple, may be I didn’t want to face the crowd or the god there. I wasn’t happy.
I got many messages many mails may calls asking about the next post on my blog and I had no clue. All I know that I have to quit blogging now but then I met this Delhi Bloggers group and BBC guys, felt like we are different..Why ? Coz we share with world in our own words.
When I was standing there on the terrace I was just thinking about my attitude in last couple of days with some dear one. I realized of being arrogant and headstrong for no reason or may be coz I’m not working no days. I have to be more silent and except the situation rather should fight. Now I couldn’t find the answer, I gave explanations at times in my personal life, when not needed also, when I knew I was right also, but felt helpless, couldn’t prove to people whom I love, so now I should keep silence..I’m scared they will leave me, wanted to be loved by them so I kept quite so many times and it worked many a times.
Some personal issues are mixing up with my professional work and that’s nagging me. I’m trying to put some sense into my head when I got irritated at times and make other persom irritated.
During Bloggers’s meet someone asked me “Why is my blog so self centered??? Because I am good at talking only about me and not about the world or the people in there. I can be good critic,but I don’t want my thoughts to be imposed on others so here I am, talking only about myself, my family, my friends, my emotions and my feelings. I am soooooooo selfish na:) I am and i have no problem with it.
Big Question: What if I don’t turn up forever, and then be happy forever. Be prepared!!
I was talking to my friend from Mumbai and she said “wish I can get a second chance, I could hav change so much from my past “ and I was think what if I get second chance at life what would I do ….”I will study lot ..lot of literature , lot of arts and lot of music and yeah learn to be more polite”
So I just leave you guys with this question “If you get a second chance at life what would you do?”
Its time to cook dinner and the music I’m listening is again n again is
“Mai zindagi ka saath nibhata chala gaya,
har firk ko dhue me udata chala gaya
Barabaadiyo. kaa sog manaanaa fizuul thaa
Barabaadiyo. kaa jashn manaataa chalaa gayaa
Jo mil gayaa usii ko muqaddar samajh liyaa
Jo kho gayaa mai usako bhulaataa chalaa gayaa
Gam aur Khushii me. fark na mahasuus ho jahaa
mai dil ko us muqaam pe laataa chalaa gayaa
Mai zindagi ka……”
