End of the road!!
Here I go again, lost in another of my mysterious mood swings.
This blog was to be a chronicle of my trials and triumphs. So far the only thing I have chronicled is about my disastrous carrier life, my failed passionate love affair, a few morbid poems, a few posts that reflect my sullen moods and unstable temperament.
Interesting as it may have been at times to read, it has mostly been aimless rambling, just like my life.
I have been going around in circles chasing my own impossible tail. Of course this blog was never written to win any popularity contest, nor was it a blog that would talk about the interesting places I travel to, or the food I ate there.
This is not a travel-blog. This blog was never about deep philosophical musings either. I don’t know if I have that much depth. It was never about entertaining my readers with make-believe incidents. I am just not that creative. This was purely and selfishly about me. I started this so I could read my own thoughts aloud …things that affected me and my life.
I started with aplomb. I had a lot of nice and brave things to say…things that sounded very good. I won a lot of praises and encouragement from people who believed in me but that was not I was looking for.
I have been avoiding writing lately and one of the reasons is that at some point I let the gaps widen too much. I lost the urge to write because instead of writing what I was thinking, I started worrying about people’s reactions to what I’d write.
I guess it’s time I should start writing for “me” again. I think it’s time I should really fill in the gaps. Not for anyone else, but for my own reference. After all this is a chronicle of my life or so I’d still like to think anyway. And yea, for those of you who are still reading this blog…
So far I enjoyed my stay here and glad that I learned a lot and above that I got good friends in my life.
Its not end of road …it’s another beginning.
