Heart-less
Main bhool jaaun tumhein ab yahi munaasib hai
magar bhulana bhi chaahoon to kis tarah bhooloon
ki tum to phir bhi haqiqat ho koi khwaab nahin.
Yahan to dil ka ye aalam hai, kya kahoon
bhula saka na ye wo silsila jo tha hee nahin
wo ek khayaal jo awaaz tak gaya hee nahin
wo ek baat jo main keh nahin saka tumse
wo ek rabt jo hum mein kabhi raha hee nahin
mujhe hai yaad wo sab, jo kabhi hua hee nahin.
Agar ye haal hai dil ka to koi samjhaaye,
tumhein bhulana bhi chaahoon to kis tarah bhooloon
ki tum to phir bhi haqiqat ho koi khwaab nahin.
Javedakhtar.
How many times do we travel through time,how many times do we all revisit the past,revisit the memories,Sometimes they bring smiles,sometimes they leave me in tears,But still i own them all,I relive them all,Walking through the narrow streets of my heart i pause at a few places,i hear laughter,i hear sounds,i try to recollect it all,I want to pause there forever,freeze such moments,But i know i cannot.
The year is coming to an end,one more day goes into history,One more year gone by,People came into and people walked out of my life,It all seems so easy.But still there is something so strange about it,Am i a better person than last yr,will i be someone different after one more year? Sometimes its better not to wait for answers,they will come along while you keep walking the through the waggeries of life.
It never took me so long to write,but it feels as if i forgot words,It feels as if i am lost in something,Why am i not able to express myself? Or is it true that i stopped asking questions to myself? Asking questions to life?
Maybe, But i am for sure a better person past one yr, Today i don’t react much, Because i know solutions come along for sure, I maynot express myself when someone shares their pain, their tears, but i know the value of them, i can feel it too.
Unfortunately people thought i became HEARTLESS and walked off,people whom i called friends,whom i made friends for life,whom i shared so many secrets with, Did i share so much which i should’nt have done? Do i regret? Maybe i Do… Or maybe i don’t, But all in all, such experiences taught me something, helped me to revisit myself, reflect on my ways, ponder over my feelings and it helped me.
If someone walked off then maybe they were never meant to be with me. Strange that we use words which we cannot live up to.
But then i am happy with the few who are still with me, a few from long long time, and few whom i met in this virtual world and i know we would all stick together, where ever we are we would, Thank god for what i have today, thank god for the friends around, i am what i am, i owe no explanations what-so-ever.
I got to know too many people in the blogworld past one yr, a few became friends, and few whom i would fondly remember with an occasional mail or a phone call. The list was growing and somewhere but I never wanted to loose the count, now i need to stop it .I have people around and i am happy with my life.
